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| holy shit! Times 6. Its been like 8 months since Ive been here, Fucking LJ..
its 5 am, and I am up... dont be surprised,I work midnight to 8 am... SO this is very normal.
I wont bother to catch you up completely on whats happened in those 8 months... Lots of Naughty Gorry stupid details. To many lame pointless boys to list. Things between me and derek are finally over, I have no idea why I put up with all that shit for so damn long.. 8 months almost.. So close to being my longest relationship... But I wouldn't have counted it as seeing how off and on all that shit was. I feel a bit bitter but I am enjoying not being tied to him right now.. not that I want back, Just not complaining about being single. Albert and I started talking again, He's leaving for San Marcos for College but we've been out a few times I dont quite know if its going anywhere but no point really for seeing anything. Josh and I went out a few times since also.. Except, well I'll be honest.. He cried during sex, it was the biggest turn off ever. I am heartless... maybe, probbaly.. yeah.. I am. Eriks fault not mine, by the way that fuck heads getting married, Ronnies in jail.. Proof I must not have the magic touch when it comes to boys.
Theres a paper cut on my tounge... WTF?!
Either way back to my rant about those of who carry the penis.. Theres actually this one nice happy thing in going on.. This boy from highschool , one who I had the biggest crush on.. This twin named Hector who I had for both my phsycology and sociology classes. We used to sit together and just rant and talk such shit, I had the biggest personality crush on him. Then I never said anything cause we were both in and out of relationships and it didn'tseem like a good idea to put myself out there. Either way, he moved to california and ended up telling me online that he liked me during highschool. We saw eachother during the holidays except I had derek and he had someone else so once again nothing... but now I am single and so is he and he's coming home for spring break and we have a date set... I am actually excited... How lame?
well.. Bye.
moe | | |
| holy shit..
been a while. I turned 18. thats about it. | | |
| new picture...
more recent..
but not recent enough
I need to picture whore myself
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| I dunno what it is about livejournal but every month I just hate it for a week or two then I come back here. No one really reads this, so its semi comforting to me. Like I can be myself no fear.
So boys.. not really worth wasting my time chatting about. Robbys dating soem ho, but.. i got over him really easily. I miss drew from time to time but every now and then someone talks shit and I remember that bad week we had before everything was over. Ronnie.. he was just for fun, but I lack fun lately. A boy named Joes been flirting with me lately, scared me a lil the other day by saying if he took me to a certain place hed fall in love with me. He doesn't live here, he used to and is coming back but not til july and its like.. why bother? So, I am content wiht being alone. I dunno why this feeling we need someone to make us complete comes to mind. Its aggravating. I hate people who cant go anywhere without there bf or gf.. fuck that shit. Haha.
Any who.. Still hate jenn. Shes annoying the shit out of me.blah blah blah give me shit back so I can pawn it for crack. Lame ass ho. I think I might call Kacy to see if shes up for a movie. Thatd be nice. No one else seems to even notice me right now. Ive become invisible. again. Not that I want the attention, cause when I get it.. its negative. But whatever. I am tired. Mentally. hope everyones doing good.
Does anyone still read this crap? | | |
| I met a new boy and I was dumb enough to let him in. Apparently I wasn't the only one who noticed how completely fucking awesome he was and the fact I have NO SELF ESTEEM made me ruin my own day, that and the fact it was like " every girl who likes the boy should IM you and talk about him with you " day. Ho's...
why do I like him? He makes me feel so special when its me and him and he is being himself, he is just awesome to me.. but then he does make me feel like shit because he knows I like him but I still have to listen to him talk about all these other girls which makes me feel shitty and insignificant.. they aren't good girls either, so being jealous or envious about them makes me feel seriously low.
BOYS HURT MORE THAN HELP | | |
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